Yes, I’m Bitter

UGH. Hello! This post will be another one of my rants which means I’m just venting out my anger. In some way, I may be a bit irrational?? I don’t know.


Today I went to school in a good mood. I had just printed our group’s (beautiful!!!) poster for our World Literature project. After doing so, I headed to my Oral Communications (Oralcom) Lab class which is the counterpart of the Lecture class I have on Tuesdays and Thursdays. It contains 30% of my overall oralcom grade, so naturally, I still cared a lot about my grade for this subject despite the inadequate professor. 

We had 3 speech tasks overall and she gave me 75-100-75 respectively. First of all, this was my first time ever getting a 75, so I //had// to question her. I think I did what she asked after all. For one of those, it was a “How-to” speech and she didn’t give us any guidelines/requirements/criteria/anything. She simply told us that any topic would do as long as it was a “how-to” speech. As such, I thought that maybe teaching people how to make essays seem longer by changing the font size of punctuation and all that would be pretty interesting. She gladly accepted the topic anyway, so I went with that. 

Today, she told me that she gave me a 75 because she DIDN’T LIKE MY TOPIC. She said that it promotes the idea of deceiving your professors and cheating. It irked me because she never said anything on the day we did that! I told her that if she didn’t like it, she should’ve said so and she should have also given us guidelines at least because it’s unfair that she’d just magically give us a grade without any basis.


She answered that she “trusted the class’s judgment”. UHMM HELLO???? That isn’t a reason to not have a basis for our grades. I mean, if she didn’t like my topic, I don’t care. She should judge my speech based on my delivery, eye-contact, posture, syntax, grammar, and all those important details. It’s very unjust of her to simply tell me it “promoted cheating so she didn’t like it”. 

For my other grade of 75, it was SUPPOSEDLY an extemporaneous speech. In reality, however, it was just her asking us to pick from a deck of Icebreaker cards and answer it. The question I got was what I would give up in order to get something done. I explained that in the case of homework and projects, I’d give up the time I use to watch movies because my routine is basically going home from school and watching an episode from a TV series or a movie. She even added her own question as to what movie I recently watched (which wasn’t even part of the card I got and I see no significance in answering it but I did). Anyway, I asked her why she gave me a 75 for that and she said “HMMMM….MAYBE IT WAS ALSO THE CONTENT” (referring to my previous speech on making essays look longer). ????????????? She wasn’t even sure of where she based my grade on so how could she do that. I even stayed beside her for a while asking her other things like where she based my grade and if her only problem was the content then how did that take a huge chunk of my score and SHE JUST BRUSHED ME OFF. 

I swear to God she does nothing every class time except for googling a powerpoint presentation and pretending she knew the content before she showed it to us. She hardly discusses properly and she gives vague activities with zero transparency!!!! 

She even tried to console me for the low grade by saying “it’s okay, it’s not only you who got it” and “It’s not that bad”

I don’t think knowing that others got a low grade would make me feel better. Also “not that bad” made me lose my chance of getting a 4.0 grade in the subject because the highest possible grade I can get now is a 95 and that’s within the 3.5 mark already (93-96). 


I’m extremely bitter about this. 

I sincerely do not wish her well. 




Oh Captain, My Captain

Oh, Captain, My Captain. 

It came as a shock to me that Robin Williams has died, because I grew up with many of his films like Aladdin and Jumanji. As such, I’ve done an illustration in his honor. sweetdrop onion headI wish I could’ve added more references to his other movies like perhaps a box of the Jumanji board game or the book featured in Dead Poets Society, but this was all I could do yesterday when the news came to me.



(click the image to be redirected to my Tumblr)

That’s the Genie in Mrs. Doubtfire’s attire–two of his most notable roles, in my opinion. 

Anyway, I’ll wrap up this blog entry for now since I’d rather put my rant on my school’s system in a different blog post instead. victory onion headBye bye!


Hooked on a Feeling

Hey there!! I watched Guardians of the Galaxy last week (idk why I didn’t blog about it in my previous post, but anyway, I’m writing it down now). It really blended the humor, drama and action. It’s like any other Marvel movie but at the same time it’s not because it gave off a different vibe.  Even with the comedy, it still managed to put in scenes which were heartfelt. serenade onion head

I’ve drawn some fan art for the movie over the week!

Since Zoe Saldana plays Gamora and is also the voice actress for Maria in The Book of Life, I drew Gamora in Maria’s clothes! ♥ (click on the images for bigger resolution/redirected to my tumblr)


I also made some practice sketches of Groot and Rocket because they are a couple of cutie pies! Seeing them makes me thing of the song “You’ve Got a Friend in Me” from Toy Story. shy onion headeheheh. I’m super happy this one got notes on Tumblr. It received a lot more than my Gamora illustration even though the other one is colored and all.

Anyway, moving on, I went to my friend’s 18th birthday last night.


They are such precious little gems in my life. I’m so happy that I get to spend these occasions with them! Even without talking for months, we’re still close as ever. ♥ Also, I got to use my Instax with the pretty polka-dotted film my other friend gave me. Yay, yay, yay.

The pizza in that place was also pretty good. full onion headWe talked all night too. Pizza + friends = happy Ami.


Rain, Rain, Go Away

♪ Rainy days and Mondays always get me down ♪

















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The song Rainy Days and Mondays is a perfect fit for today’s weather. It’s a Monday and it was raining–really hard. We had PE in our main campus so naturally, we had to walk from our building to that. When we went there at 3pm, it was only drizzling. An hour later, however, while we were in the gym, we heard the loud downpour of the rain! After class, my friends and I fixed-up a bit in the locker room (since we were all sweaty and tired from PE) and decided to stop by the cafeteria. We stayed there for a while until we decided to head back to the SDA (school of design and arts which is the building for most of my classes) for our next class.

Unfortunately for us, the rain was already too strong. My umbrella wasn’t big enough to completely protect my bag and myself from the rain. My sketchpad got a little wet and the front of my bag was completely soaked! Not to mention that while walking on the streets, the flood had gone up already so when I stepped on the road, the flood water seeped into my rubber shoes!! depressed2 onion headIt felt really gross because even my socks were wet. Upon arriving to our classroom, many of us removed our shoes and socks because we were all victims to the sudden flood and rain. I even went to the bathroom and used the hand dryer to dry my socks.

UUUUUUGH. ;___; The weather sucks so bad.

It’s always either too hot or too rainy. Having a day with a perfect balance of sunshine and cool air is like finding a needle in a haystack.

Thankfully I got home early so I could take a shower. I also had dinner in front of the computer while I watched a few episodes of Detective Conan. ♥ I guess I could say that my night ended on a pretty good note. Hopefully it won’t rain as hard tomorrow! Goodnight. sleeping onion head


Blog Makeover and Updates on Life

Finally edited my theme after 2 years!! happy onion headI changed it to blue along with a new header featuring some of my illustrations. ♥ I really like how those three came out so I decided to put them together. There are supposed to be four of them inspired by the four seasons, but I haven’t gotten around to drawing Autumn yet. From left to right, that’s winter, spring, and summer.

Anyway, this isn’t just for my wordpress account. I also modified my Twitter and Tumblr theme! I think it fits my personality better than the old one since I never really liked cherries or the color pink.


I haven’t blogged here in a long time, so I’ll write what I’ve been up to lately. For starters, I’m now proud to say that I’m updated with the latest Detective Conan episode!! Thanks to the wiki, I only watched episodes taken from the manga and are therefore, canon. I also skipped some filler episodes because they don’t contain plot/character progression.

This anime really is my favorite after all! I mean, I like certain shows best at certain points in my life, but it always comes down to Detective Conan. When I look back at my old blog posts back in 2012, I remember binge watching the series and including the episodes I’ve watched in my blog entries. Even after many years, I still can’t picture the whole plot. I love the new characters and the story arcs that continue to add depth to the series. embarrassed1 onion head♥♥♥♥♥

For the past few days when I’m not doing school work or drawing, I’m only watching episodes of Detective Conan. Since I’m up-to-date, however, I’m now going back to the filler episodes I skipped and am watching them. Thankfully, I still keep a list to remind me of which episodes I’ve seen/not seen.


Today, I went to Greenbelt with my college friends!!! We ate lunch at Chili’s and oh god, the serving was huge. Safe to say, I was beyond full by the time I stopped eating.

I also got to wear the cute bear tights I got from Japan a few months ago.embarrassed4 onion headMy friend and I also bought a sketchbook from Muji while my other friend already had one with her. Since they have this little corner in the shop with various stamps you can stamp on your Muji item to customize it, we took a while stamping ours. Although they were only available in black or red ink, I think they are super cute!!

This is what the back of mine looks like. I like how the ink isn’t evenly spread to form the image because it gives off a different feel when it’s a bit faded and incomplete.

I’m still in the process of developing an art style (again), so I hope I can do the pretty notebook justice with my art. ;u; It’s not everyday that I feel proud of anything I draw.

Anyway, this is it for today. I know I say this time and time again, but I really do wish I could blog more. Hopefully, I’ll at least get the motivation to type a few words every other day to keep this blog updated. Goodnight! dreaming onion head




From Where Ideas Grow

Hey there! cheer2 onion headRecently, I’ve been watching this special effects make-up competition called Face Off. I love it so much because as an artist myself, I want to be able to conceptualize like them. Sometimes, I try to sketch out a few of my own ideas based on the challenge, but I’m still unable to draw creatures, so I just do the ones that can be pretty like pixies or half-human stuff.

I LOVE LAURA SO MUCH. I watched her on season 3 and she should’ve won!! Nicole was great toward the end, and I admit that I like her make-up in the finale the best, but overall, Laura did better in the whole season. She’s never been in the bottom and she won lots of the challenges. I’m so happy she got to win in season 5. hell yes onion headSpeaking of season 5, I love how Miranda improved a lot since her appearance in season 2. I was also rooting for her to be in the top 3. Roy and Tate deserve to be there too, tho!

Anyway, for my org in school, I designed a character based on my plane. The thing is, we are all segregated into 4 different groups which they call “planes” with each having one of the 4 elements: air, water, earth, fire. Based on this, there will be world building and some sort of role-play that’s going to happen. I’m from Aquilo which has air for its main element and the color yellow. Our head also wanted to incorporate a medieval-steampunk theme, so with that in mind, this was what I came up with:


Her name is Aderyn Rae which means “Bird Protector”. Her armor is fashioned to look like a long-tailed widowbird with bronze/copper gloves and boots. She has a feathery tail for aesthetic purposes (like a cape) and machine wings for a little more steampunk. I also added yellow eyeshadow to show that Aquilo color! She specializes in training birds especially carrier pigeons in preparation for the war.happy onion headI’m happy with how she turned out!

Also, I’m trying out a new art style that’s less time consuming, but still simple and pretty. ♥ With it, I’ve drawn two other things so far. This one is an animated blinking Lorna Morello from Orange is the New Black. I really love her back story as it was revealed in season 2. She’s a funny, lovable person and perhaps my favorite!

.GIF version of my Lorna Morello fan art :). She blinks! 

Also, I drew this one just today!!

I’m really proud of this ’cause I like the colors I used on her. The decision to add pattern to her dress also worked well. embarrassed4 onion headIt’s actually based on one of the drawings I had in my notebook ’cause I decided to take pictures of them and practice my new style by coloring those.


So far, I’m not as stressed as I was last term. I just had my midterm exams this week and they’re all okay. I feel great that I was able to do my speech for oral communication class without having a long, awkward pause in-between. I guess I’m slowly getting better at this whole public speaking thing ever since I got to college. It probably has something to do with my confidence too, so that’s a good thing. waiting onion head

That’s it, I guess? I’ll try to write more entries when I’m not binge-watching something in bed or drawing. Bye bye.



5 Traits I Personally Find Incredibly Wrong with Church

Rant ahead. Proceed with caution.

I originally typed this on notepad on my iphone during church and it ended up being 1000+ words long, so I decided to post it here without trying to sugarcoat it or anything. The purpose of this post is to vent off steam and write what I personally find wrong with church and not a formal article addressing the issue.

Anyway, this is a sort of a list/rant that I’ve compiled on 5 traits I find wrong about church based on my years of being a churchgoer. Even though I said “church”, I’m focusing more on the pastors because they usually create the mood in the whole congregation. I’ve been going to church regularly for over two years, and before then, I went to Sunday school semi-regularly for a couple of years. I also grew up in an Evangelical Christian school, so I’ve had my share of experience with different types of pastors. I’ve gone over this list many times every time I encountered someone who felt imposing about his/her beliefs, but during my recent Sunday experience, the pastor hit all the red flags, prompting me to write this immediately.

1.) Pretentious

There are certain pastors who assume responsibility for you and make you feel like you’ve wronged them if you were to make a mistake.

Recently, I’ve attended a service wherein the pastor talked about teenage girls who had relationships behind their parents’ back. He said that these girls were straying from the Lord and in result, got pregnant and now, it becomes a burden to their parents and to him as well because he is their pastor.

Here’s the thing. I’m pretty sure the girl is well aware of the decisions she made and if she feels bad about them, you’re not supposed to add to that by telling her that she made you feel responsible for it as if she intentionally chose this to happen. It’s alright to reprimand her, but guilt-tripping won’t do any good.

Instead of acting pretentious, a better option is to give them space/time by themselves, and advice them properly when the time is right.

2.) Elitist
There is this certain pride that comes with some pastors. They feel like they are entitled to belittle those who do not share the same beliefs with them. What’s worse is that, sometimes, they make light of something which results in the congregation laughing along as if it’s okay.

An example of this would be when the pastor shared an experience of a girl who went to the beach, and upon arriving there under the blazing sun, she exclaimed that she was getting darker. He said the line while imitating the girl’s voice mockingly, and most of the congregation laughed with him.

I was shocked to see that kind of manner in a church. Here you have a girl who just didn’t want to get tanned, and you have a congregation belittling her for being shallow. How’s that for a church family? No thank you.

3.) Self-Privileged
These special privileges apply to the way pastors or other church members handpick the rules to impose on the rest of us. The exceptions are made to fit their chosen lifestyle of what they think is “morally good”.

There are many things prohibited by the Bible that stem from the old testament which are not being followed anymore. A thing like marrying someone from a different tribe or something along those lines is similar to an interracial or intercultural marriage today, but we don’t prohibit that do we?

It is fine to not approve of something personally, but don’t try to turn your own interpretation of the word into the law. Everyone is entitled to his/her own reading of the Bible, and although it may not be the correct one for you, unless the word explicitly states otherwise, it’s open for interpretation.

4.) Judgmental
Judging someone is common to all of us. We all have our first impressions of each other, but it crosses the line when you generalize a whole group of people based on one person you barely even know.
Our pastor shared a story on how most Chinese children are forced to study by their parents and that in turn, even though they don’t get to have as much fun as the others, at least they get the best grades. He said it in a way that’s basically like saying, “hey, at least you’re smarter than them”. It was like generalizing everyone who doesn’t study all the time as those with mediocre or average marks. I mean, some may excel and have a social life at the same time. Not everyone fails just because they don’t bury themselves in books and not everyone graduates with honors even when they do.

This story wasn’t even directly connected to the message, rather, it was only a poor attempt at a “modern example” of something. Stories that aid the message shouldn’t belittle others or put others above the rest because this creates a wall between the churchgoers and the non-churchgoers. Instead of a welcoming atmosphere, a community under this type of leader becomes an exclusive members-only club which is really not how you “make fishers of men”.

5.) The “Holier-than-thou” attitude
This last one is basically the umbrella of everything. Someone with a “holier-than-thou” attitude is commonly pretentious, elitist, self-privileged, and judgmental. They are self-righteous in many ways, yet insist to be labeled “sinners”. It’s a facade they put up, so they can seem humble to the mass.

Mockery is common because apparently, it’s funny when you mock the actions of people perceived as shallow by society. It all starts for fun and not to be taken seriously, but that grows into a bad habit when you’re a pastor and you know there are people looking up to you for wisdom and instead you pass on this type of mindset.

When you’re showing that it’s okay to make fun of people doing drugs and getting drunk, but God forbid you make fun of people for going to church. That’s double standards, and you’re definitely not holier than anyone.