I feel like everyone has this thing that haunts them, whether it’s an embarrassing experience, an argument, a childhood trauma, or even a feeling. They’re like our “inner-demons”.
Before I talk more about this, I’ll explain a few things. There’s a webcomic I read called Ava’s Demon and it’s amazing. The art especially is beautiful! Last week, I decided that it would be interesting to create my own. All demons in the Ava’s Demon universe so far has names based on the 7 deadly sins. They’re also anagrams of the sin they correspond to such as Tuls for Lust and Nevy for Envy. I even read up online about different things in order to conceptualize this character. Eventually, I became sort-of invested to it.
Having said that, my demon is a demon of despair. Despair is one of the 8 evil thoughts in Greek under the name Tristitia. It was omitted due to being combined with Acedia which is apathy in order to result in what we now call “Sloth”.
Going back to the whole “haunting” thing, I feel like I’m haunted most by despair. There are nights when there’s a sudden emptiness in me that I can explain. I’m very negative in many ways, and everything’s just dark to me. I won’t really expound on this right now because tonight is not one of those sorrowful nights. I’m pretty happy today actually. Recently, I don’t get these sad nights anymore, so that’s good.
With that as an inspiration, I created my demon. Her name is Drespia Morgana. Drespia is an anagram for Despair while Morgana is taken from Morganite, a gemstone which has a pinkish color. It’s known for its healing properties that can reduce stress, anxiety, trauma, pain, etc.
I feel like this gemstone is the complete opposite of despair because it “heals” it. As such, Drespia is covered in shattered pieces of morganite as a way to “cure” herself from the emptiness. She and her lifeform both have a fear of being alone, so they easily form a pact. By luring her lifeform into depression, she is reassured of never being alone. It’s just as the saying goes: “misery loves company”.
Nevertheless, they’re both trying to fill that emptiness and escape the feeling of despair.
It is represented by the color purple.
I’m super duper happy with the outcome because it’s my first try at this type of coloring style! Conceptualizing the character was so much fun too. ♥
After finishing this illustration, I found out that there was an Ava’s Demon contest ongoing at the time and it was on the day of the deadline! I, therefore, decided to enter this piece into the competition.
The results came out and sadly, I didn’t win (I wanted the merchandise so bad ). The person who won really made a beautiful illustration and concept, though, so she/he was deserving of the prize!
I’m contented with just entering the contest in the first place because it’s new to me. That’s a piece of self-esteem right there!
Anyway, I’m going now! Night! ♥